Have you ever wanted to stomp your feet, shake your hands in the air and throw a tantrum like a two year old BECAUSE IT'S NOT FAIR????
I HAVE! {more than once!}
I have struggled with infertility our entire seventeen year marriage. It's truly a miracle that we have Tanner. He is a miracle. He is ours because it was Heavenly Father's plan that he come to our family. We have no other children because it is Heavenly Father's plan that we don't have any other children. It's been the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. It's painful. It's isolating. Who wants to talk about it? Who understands?
I love Jason with all my heart, but he is a guy and he just doesn't understand what infertility has done to me. To my mother heart.
For years I struggled SO much with feelings of inadequacy. With negativity. I thought I must not be good enough. I must have done something wrong. I had a hole in my heart that I felt could not be filled. I must be broken.
I am broken. We all are.
BUT there is Hope. Hope in the Atonement of our Savior, Jesus Christ.
I can be happy here on the earth. I can have joy. Tanner is the light of my life and he is enough for me. I can live a full and happy life. My heart has been healed through the Atonement. The hole in my heart has been filled with the love of my Savior. He has healed me.
I still have infertility. I will always live with infertility. I will always feel a little pain when my friends and family announce that they are having babies. But, it only lasts for a moment and I can be happy for them.
I found so much comfort in
Sister Burton's talk at the
Relief Society Broadcast in October. I still find comfort in her words. I'm so grateful for the hope that the Atonement give me. She is correct
ALL that is unfair
CAN be made right, through the atonement of Jesus Christ.
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